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wThursday, July 17, 2003


So it's only been about six months since I posted here. I guess I just sort of forgot about my Blog and was only posting in LiveJournal, but I like my Blog, too. So let's see. a lot has happened since I posted last, but I now have a step-mom and two step-sisters, which is a big thing. I like all three of them, which is good. I think we're all adjusting pretty well.

I still have five weeks before I have to go back to school. I'm not really sure how I feel about it. I still have stuff to finish up before then, too. Anyway, I think I'll just keep this entry short and update again later.

posted by Kristin at 10:04 AM


wSaturday, January 25, 2003


So I e-mailed Emilie on Thursday night to see if she wanted to do something sometime soon like go get some Quizno's and she replied back that night saying she was too frozen to write much, but that Quizno's is good. So I e-mailed her back again telling her to just let me know when she wanted to do something. And I've been checking my e-mail like constantly since then and haven't heard anything. But it's cool. I talked to two girls in my weather and climate class yesterday morning and I guess they're my friends in that class now, which is cool. Then I had psych. I didn't see Laura again, so either she's still sick or she's dropped the class or has diguised herself well, I'm not sure. It doesn't matter that much, though. Then I came back and slept. Sleep is good. Then Jessa, the girl who I see in the TV lounge and talk to a lot, asked me if I wanted to go to Target with her, so we went to Target and looked around. While she looked for a wedding present, I looked at Valentine's Day cards and decided to get one for Emilie. Except, I couldn't decide which card to get her. So I ended up buying three showing various levels of affection. One of them is like a friend one that shows all these kids in Philosophy 101 reading Plato except for this one kid who has a jar of Play-dough on his desk and on the inside it say, "It doesn't take a genius to know that you're wonderful." Then another one has this penguin on it, and Emilie and I both love penguins, and it has its wings spread out and on the inside it says, "I love you this much." Then the third one..well, I definitely shouldn't give it to her. On the front it says, "Open this card if you want to be my Valentine," and then on the inside it says, "That was easy. Now close the card if you want to be my sex slave." I thought it was amusing and well, I don't know. I want to give it to her but shouldn't, seeing how our friendship is even still shaky. Anyway, it just made me kind of sad, seeing all the stuff out for Valentine's Day and not even being sure if Emilie wants to even be friends with me. I just miss her so much. But moving on, which I am trying to do, Jessa and I then stopped at Krispy Kreme and I got a strawberry filled pastry, which was delicious, and a regular glazed, which was good, too. Then we looked around some at the mall and then she dropped me off. It was around seven then, so I checked my e-mail again, but no e-mails, and then I heard RA Jenny in my suitemate's room, so I went and talked to them. They were planning on going to rent a movie at Hastings and then get some ice cream and asked me if I wanted to go with them and I said sure. So we went to Hastings and took forever to rent a movie, but finally picked out Ice Age, then we stopped at Braums, and then came back to the dorms and put Ice Age in. Katie came in and watched it with us, too, which was cool. Jennifer came in at the end and then she started teaching us some yoga, so we all got in our pajamas and did yoga, which was a lot of fun, and then Kat showed us some aerobics. Then we were all energized, so we decided to watch another movie. So we put in Hook because I love Hook and it had been a long time since I'd seen it and we all really enjoyed it. I think it had been a long time since any of us had seen us, so we got a lot of the jokes we hadn't gotten when we were younger. Anyway, it was an incredibly fun Friday night. Also, Kat said I could go with her and Jennifer to see Chicago next weekend, which makes me extremely happy. I love Chicago. I had a lot of fun playing with them. We didn't end up going to bed until after three. So I ended up sleeping until three in the afternoon, then I showered and I've been reading for class some more. I cannot express how tired I am of reading for class. Stupid freaking honors perspectives class needs to just rot in hell. Or something. But I guess I should go read some more. I'm trying to read a certain amount every day so I don't get too burned out doing all of it at once, but it's just so exhausting. Oh well, I'll make sure I get some play time in today. Probably watch some Buffy season three on DVD or something. That always makes me happy and cheers me up.

posted by Kristin at 8:08 PM


wThursday, January 23, 2003


It's cold again. And I mean cold. I had to walk across campus at nine this morning, which isn't really too terrible, but I was walking in the direction of the wind and I could not feel my face or move my lips by the time I got to my class. However, I managed to go to all my classes and finish my homework pretty much on time. Also, I went to lunch with my RA, Kelli, and Gina, which was kind of fun. I've just gotten tired of not being able to really talk to them. I mean, I guess it's okay to hang out with them, but I've been wanting a friend that I can just sit with and talk to for hours about the things I really need to talk about. Emilie could be that person, but I think our friendship isn't established that much again yet, so I need to wait. Actually, I saw her today. When I was going to my perspectives discussion, I saw Sarah sitting in the building reading and I knew from last semester when she was a writing assistant that when she and Emilie rode to campus together, Emilie would meet her after American lit over at the building so they could ride back. So after my discussion, I talked to Sarah for about ten minutes, which she didn't seem extremely pleased about, but not pissed about, either, until Emilie walked in from her class. She didn't really say anything to me. She started talking about how she'd fallen asleep before class and the guy from our class last semester (she directed this at me) woke her up and then they were leaving and I told Emilie that I had discussion and had seen Sarah and so had stopped to say hi to her and then Emilie said that she had forgotten to say hi, but yeah. And then they were leaving out one door and I was leaving out another. And I realized that despite all my pretending and denying, I still love her and she does not feel the same way about me. And since she produces strong emotions in me and I'm also experiencing shifting hormone levels also known as PMS, I went back to my room and cried and then Chelsea came in and asked if I was all right and I said sure and then curled up into a ball and slept for four hours. And felt much better. Oh, and I also ate two and a half S'mores Pop-tarts. We learned in psychology today that eating carbohydrates boosts levels of serotonin. So thanks to sleep and carbohydrates and other hormone fluctuations, I now view my earlier episode as silly and unecessary. Wow, that word looks weird. But moving on. I have so much reading this semester. I'm only taking thirteen hours, but I have American literature and I have a perspectives class, and those are very reading intensive. I have to have 100 pages read by Monday for that class, plus two thirty page chapters for meteorology, The Awakening for American lit on Tuesday, and I should probably read some from my psych book sometime although the teacher doesn't seem to concern herself with the textbook much. So off I go to read some Ben Franklin. Maybe.

posted by Kristin at 1:23 AM


wWednesday, January 22, 2003


Three things that make me happiest:
-Hanging out with Emilie.
-Watching Buffy (especially seasons 3 and 4).
-Reading a good book.

posted by Kristin at 12:40 AM


wTuesday, January 21, 2003


My clothes still smell like Emilie's apartment and that makes me very happy for some reason. Just smelling them reminds me of her and makes me smile. I'm so glad we're friends again. Anyway, I guess I better shower so I can go to my American lit class where I don't know anyone and sit there for an hour and fifteen minutes bored. Still, I'm happy because Emilie and I are friends.

posted by Kristin at 3:12 PM


wMonday, January 20, 2003


Today was a fantastic day. I got up and showered and all that and got some reading done and then I went ahead and called Emilie and we went to IHOP and we sat there and talked for a long time and it was cool. Then she said she needed to go to Wal-mart and I said I'd go with her, then she said we should go to Barnes and Noble, which I can never refuse. So we looked at books for a while there and she ended up buying a book and this awesome celestial type leather journal which was just the coolest journal ever and I bought another Terry Pratchett book. While we were waiting in line, I heard someone behind me saying my name and I looked back and Gina and Kelli were standing there. They told me I looked nice and asked me what I was doing there and I told them I was there buying books with Emilie and I gestured towards Emilie, who was busy paying. They asked if that was "Emilie" and I said yeah and they said they were there studying and they would talk to me later. Anyway, after that Emilie needed to go back to her apartment to get something, so we went by there and Sarah was there and acted pleased to see me and asked how my semester was going and if I liked my classes and that she hadn't seen me in forever. Tell me about it. So we talked for a while and then she went with us to Wal-mart and then Emilie started driving back to the apartment afterwards and asked if I didn't mind watching 7th Heaven because that's what we were probably going to do if I went back with them to the apartment. I was amazed. She hadn't invited me over since we broke up, which was over two months ago now. So I said that that was fine, because I like mocking TV shows like 7th Heaven with them. So we went back and Emilie started working on sewing a pair of pants and watching TV and we watched a good three and half or so hours of TV, which included The Simpsons, 7th Heaven, Joe Millionaire, and CSI Miami and mocking them all. So Emilie picked me up at three this afternoon and dropped me off close to ten thirty. It's a very good sign. She told me that I should e-mail her because she hasn't been getting along with her cell phone. So I'm going to do that later this week, I think. Tell her hi and share some amusing stories or something and then see if she wants to go eat at Quizno's or something sometime or go see Chicago or something. Anyway, it was a lot of fun. The most fun I'd had in a long time. Everything just felt good. And I feel so completely happy. I'm so glad she still wants to be my friend. Obviously she had a pretty good time with me today, too. I feel like this is how things are supposed to be. I don't know. If I don't get to hang out with her for a while, it's cool, but I do like spending time with her. She's Emilie and I love her to death. Anyway, it was the best Martin Luther King, Jr. Day I've ever had. Indeed indeed.

posted by Kristin at 11:46 PM


wSunday, January 19, 2003


The weather is finally warming up again. It's nice to have temperatures be above freezing. So my first week of classes was okay. I have a lot of reading to do for next week, which is good because maybe that will offset the boredom of the classes. I'm supposed to do something with Laura today but I'm a little reluctant. Being social is a lot of work for me. I think we're going to watch DVDs or something. I've been watching a lot of my Buffy season 3 DVDs. I love season three, it's awesome. Oh, and I called Emilie on Friday afternoon. We talked for a while about classes and stuff and then I asked her if she wanted to do something over the weekend and she said we could do something Monday, like have lunch or something, and said she'd call me Monday and asked to get my number. Apparently she lost her cell phone over the break and she never got the message I left her before break. I was just happy because I was completely convinced that she never wanted to speak to me again, much less see me. But apparently I was very wrong and I'm extremely happy about that.
Friday night I went with Kelli and Gina to eat at the Union and then they were showing Sweet Home, Alabama at seven, so we went to watch that. It was actually better than I was expecting it to be. It wasn't nearly as good as My Big Fat Greek Wedding, but it was funny and rather amusing. After that I started reading for my American lit class on Tuesday. I finished that reading yesterday and then helped Gina and Kelli put CDs up to decorate their room. Anyway, I guess I'll read for my weather and climate class for a while until I feel motivated enough to call Laura.

posted by Kristin at 2:50 PM